BFFs

Friendship Compatibility of Libra with Pisces
An artistic soul like you can't help but respond to Pisces's creative spirit. And while the two of you enjoy building castles in the air, you do have problems with each other's methods. You feel uncomfortable when the Fish looks to you for guidance, since you don't want to cramp their style. Similarly, Pisces is intimidated by your witty and charming conversation and is often tongue-tied in your presence. So how can you resolve these differences? Well, you can start by encouraging the Fish to follow their instincts whenever they ask for approval. Pisces will always perk right up when you express faith in their intuition. On the other side, Pisces can stop struggling to keep up with your witty banter, feeling safe in the knowledge that what you really want is a friend who knows how to listen. Photography, dance and poetry are all interest you might share.


Friendship Compatibility of Libra with Cancer
It's hard for you to figure out your Cancer pal, but you'll try anyway. It seems incomprehensible to you that anyone could shift from happy to sad within seconds, but the Crab can and often does. Never fear, there are things about you that baffle the Moon Child, too. For instance, your pal can't understand how you can blow through a paycheck within a few hours time. Despite such significant differences, you do enjoy each other's company. For one thing, Cancer loves to wait on their friends and you love to be pampered. For another, you have a knack for saying just the right thing to boost a person's ego and the self-conscious Crab needs plenty of encouragement. The two of you may share a fondness for parasailing and water skiing. Shopping for antiques could also be a fun activity for you.


Friendship Compatibility of Libra with Aries
Aries is your astrological opposite, but you'd never let a petty thing like that stand in the way of friendship. Actually, teaming up with a Ram appeals to your sense of equanimity. You admire this sign's decisiveness, self-assurance and enthusiasm. Of course, there are times when you wish Aries wouldn't be so pushy -- doesn't everybody need three hours to get ready to go to the movies? Consider, though, how many times your pal has been willing to accommodate your last-minute changes of heart. You have to admit that it's nice having a friend who is willing to shift gears at a moment's notice. Neither one of you is ever at a loss for things to do, as you probably enjoy activities like ice skating, rollerblading and tennis.

Oh, Stephenie Meyer, I think I've figured you out!

Okay so I was reading the last bit of Eclipse and it was the scene where Bella is telling Jake they cant be friends anymore b/c she loves him blah blah. And Bella says:
"I used to think of you that way you know? Like the sun. My own personal sun. You balanced out the clouds nicely for me." says Bella."The clouds I can handle. But I can't fight with an eclipse." Jacob sighs. (pages 599-600)
Then it clicked! A lightbulb flicked on in my head. Stephenie has named the books in relation to Bella's relationships and how they end up at the end of the books. The celestial satallites represent her relationships.
In Twilight, while they were in the car talking for the first time about Edward (<3) being a vampire and how "Twilight is the safest time for them". Steph represents Edward by the Moon. Twilight is the beginning of night and that was the start of the Edward/Bella relationship.In New Moon, Edward was gone completely out of her life. Blind and in the dark. She first said the sun quote there. That being in the garage with Jacob was like being near the sun, warm and happy.In Eclipse, she figured out that she loved Jacob (who wouldnt?) but chose Edward because the love for him blocked out and surpassed the love for Jacob!!! The moon covers the sun!
BUT......
Breaking Dawn is coming out in several months and I expect that this book is going to be PACKED FULL of Jacob! Bella is sooo not going to be turned into a vampire. Which means the Volturi are sooo going to come after her. Because in Eclipse when they were burning the newborns and Jane was talking to them she said that Aro would be by soon. Alice said the date was set (wedding soon) and she'd be vamped already. I think that Bella is going to change her mind (she's too damn incapable of a decission) and try to be with Jacob more. Poor Edward!! (Id comfort him if I could)
But I feel Im still missing something. Something pretty big. Maybe they missed a piece of newborn in the woods or something (a bit of Reileys hand almost hit Bella when he was fighting with Seth in Eclipse). Maybe Im completely off. IDK...But I do know that the new book is going to turn away from Edward. The 'Sunlight' overpowering the darkness and the light from the 'moon' not as strong?? hmmmmm.....
But who knows. She is a mormon, right? Maybe there will be a way that Bella can have both Edward and Jacob. Maybe not. I noticed how the bella-edward-jacob triangle of love reflected some of the beliefs of mormons a few weeks ago. But who knows besides Steph??......

Oh how you taint and soil my life without even trying.

Well today was eventful. I woke up excited to see Chris and ’hang out’. But he was late waking up and had to get to class. "Okay, Well maybe after class?" Nope. No call, no text. He does that a lot so I didnt take any offense. I understand that we have communication issues. Fine, everyone has something wrong with them. I attach easy; thats my problem. I look online and see that the Slipknot tickets are on sale!!! *scream!* I am flippin out! It made me so happy I literally squeelled like a 6 year old with a new Barbie Dream House. I get a call from a friend who wants to get people together and hang out. Cool! Even better! I saw Neely, Nate, and Andrew today; even Aly...for like 10 minutes. lol. We were chilling in University area by the pond which was soooo peaceful! There were ducks, geese, swans, dogs, and BABIES!! I havent seen those in ages! lol. We took pictures and hung around the little shoppes. We got to talking and my friend ’spilled’ that Chris was hanging out with his ex. Hmmm...Well they’re friends thats fine. okay... I call, no answer. Text; nothing. Leave a message saying "WE NEED TO TALK". That gets across. I sit on my bed playing my music, trying not to let my color show. Here’s what happend:
me:"hey"Chris:"Hey whats up?"me:"NM, what did you do today?"Him:"just went to my classes. I had one at 1130 and another around noon. hung out and chilled for a bit. Had another class at 7 soo...yeah"Me:"oh...kewl. Kewl. So hows May?"
yeah...That changed things a little. Im fine when my boyfriend hangs out with his friends. No problem. That means any boyfriend! Ever. But its one thing to say; "hey babe, me and my homies and _______(ex-girls name) are gunna chill and get some booze. Ill call you after class." Or even. "Yo, Me and _______are gunna hang for a bit, wanna come?" Or "Yeah, I went to classes, hung with _______ got some booze, went to class around 7." But to try and hide it?!? My GAWD! It looks suspicious, it IS suspicious. I just want honesty. I’m not a fucking REBOUND GIRL!! I tried. I wanted it to work out and I get this. Somethings just hurt more than others. And this hurt really fucking bad.
Im really just kind of done. I want a real relationship. A real fucking relationship! I want to connect to someone on a deep deep level. To be in it to fall in love and have someone who feels the same way. Im tired of dating to just date. I want something thats meaningful and spiritual; to touch and be touched by someone not only in a physical way but emotional, mental, and spiritual level. I want to be with someone without having to struggle and work at loving them so much that the cons outnumber the pros. Im a bit crushed by the trust I had put into someone who hurt me. But I think thats how people end up this way.

Oh how you taint and soil my life without even trying.

Well today was eventful. I woke up excited to see Chris and ’hang out’. But he was late waking up and had to get to class. "Okay, Well maybe after class?" Nope. No call, no text. He does that a lot so I didnt take any offense. I understand that we have communication issues. Fine, everyone has something wrong with them. I attach easy; thats my problem. I look online and see that the Slipknot tickets are on sale!!! *scream!* I am flippin out! It made me so happy I literally squeelled like a 6 year old with a new Barbie Dream House. I get a call from a friend who wants to get people together and hang out. Cool! Even better! I saw Neely, Nate, and Andrew today; even Aly...for like 10 minutes. lol. We were chilling in University area by the pond which was soooo peaceful! There were ducks, geese, swans, dogs, and BABIES!! I havent seen those in ages! lol. We took pictures and hung around the little shoppes. We got to talking and my friend ’spilled’ that Chris was hanging out with his ex. Hmmm...Well they’re friends thats fine. okay... I call, no answer. Text; nothing. Leave a message saying "WE NEED TO TALK". That gets across. I sit on my bed playing my music, trying not to let my color show. Here’s what happend:
me:"hey"Chris:"Hey whats up?"me:"NM, what did you do today?"Him:"just went to my classes. I had one at 1130 and another around noon. hung out and chilled for a bit. Had another class at 7 soo...yeah"Me:"oh...kewl. Kewl. So hows May?"
yeah...That changed things a little. Im fine when my boyfriend hangs out with his friends. No problem. That means any boyfriend! Ever. But its one thing to say; "hey babe, me and my homies and _______(ex-girls name) are gunna chill and get some booze. Ill call you after class." Or even. "Yo, Me and _______are gunna hang for a bit, wanna come?" Or "Yeah, I went to classes, hung with _______ got some booze, went to class around 7." But to try and hide it?!? My GAWD! It looks suspicious, it IS suspicious. I just want honesty. I’m not a fucking REBOUND GIRL!! I tried. I wanted it to work out and I get this. Somethings just hurt more than others. And this hurt really fucking bad.
Im really just kind of done. I want a real relationship. A real fucking relationship! I want to connect to someone on a deep deep level. To be in it to fall in love and have someone who feels the same way. Im tired of dating to just date. I want something thats meaningful and spiritual; to touch and be touched by someone not only in a physical way but emotional, mental, and spiritual level. I want to be with someone without having to struggle and work at loving them so much that the cons outnumber the pros. Im a bit crushed by the trust I had put into someone who hurt me. But I think thats how people end up this way.

This Love Hurts More Than It Looks Like.

I am completely and one hundred percent in love with a man I will never ever have. He is a man of insight and depth. I hold him higher than most men I know and he doesnt even acknowledge me. Everything that he says is like oxygen to me, norishment for my creativity and intellegance. I am pained that he has nothing to do with me but I am happy enough to just listen to him, just listen. He wrote a new blog and I'm going to post part of it here.

You spread your legs like a disease,like the branches of a tree parting to letthe sun bleed bittersweet purposeand praise in the prayers of twigs,leaves, and sheets.Dripping twisted reasoning fromlimbs inviting a calm climb to slippingcomfort in stale clarity. No warmth isfound in parting legs that masqueradeas arms open in embrace.I hide deep in the hollow of my own body wrapped in sweet bitter bark blessed by a new sun settinghalf blasphemies on what i view asholy.I slit these lids to a four-corneredexit and pivot eight points to a sober sight.

I miss...

I was just thinking of Christopher and I know I only saw him yesterday but I want him laying next to me. Now. Stroking my hair and humming to me. I love the way he makes me feel, content, as we sit in silence.

Career of life

I keep having this conversation with my father. He wants me to get a job ASAP. Im going to be leaving soon, Norfolk whoot!, in a month and he doesnt care. Whats the point of working a pointless job that makes me unhappy for a few bucks? If I was desperate for money I'd qwhore myself on the street and make more cash in one night than working at Build A Bear for a flippin month. I'm sooo tired of this. I want to be in my career and be happy doing something Im passionate about and love. Why should I be another one of these Americans that are constantly complaining about their job and how they are sooo unhappy. Why? To make ends meat--Ends tomato? Pssh!! Fuck that! I'm not going to belittle myself to get nowhere because Im stuck in the mists of nowhere doing nothing but being a slave to a corporation of mindless drones. These drones make your food, take crap from you on the other end of the phone about how you cant turn on your computer, these drones help you get what you want, make things faster for you, so you can move on and get to the next thing that you want. But I hate humanity so why should I give them what they want? When I cant even get what I want? FUCK THAT! FUCK THEM!! No no! Im not going to be stuck doing something that is degrading and get bullshit from people I dont know or care for. Im going to do what I want and be happy doing it. I'm going to take charge of my life. And I dont care what anyone else thinks or says. They aren't living this.

"Well well well! You're here!" Said the Honey Rabbit

Well yet another blog space of mine and I think this one is going to be my serious blog...PSSH!! Yeah right what am I thinking? But I swear I will write when at all possible. I have so much to say all the time and I tend to just write and write and write thats what I do; Im a writer and there is no stopping it now! Mwahaha! I am going to be completely and brootally honest here so if you are a friend of mine don't read any more if you theink we are on the virge of severing our ties.
I've noticed how much time I spend hurt and alone and I'm truely and utterly tired of it. I am more intact with my inner goddes now than I have ever been before. I need to be treated with respect and honor. Maybe not to go as far as to PRAISE me or anything but I'd like to be appreciated more than I have been. Being who I am, a colored young lady with a intense mind for creativity and alternitive lifestyle, I get looked at in ways most people wouldn't imagine. In a society that was formed on the idea of equality and individual thought, our society treats others who are individual with less respect than a slave. I know how I must sound, like a dramatic and over emotional child, but if you walked with me through the mall, to a Chuck-e-cheese, into a 3-star resteraunt and saw the way people look at me and talk to me you would understand. I get the fact that my looks aren't the norm, but what really is normal anymore when a countries ruler was a C average student? When people care more about the next American Idol than a genocide happening right across the water? When beings brootally kill other beings to try and up their shallow self-esteem, make themselves look better? And if that esteem IS of the self then why are others killed because of YOU simple minded bitch??
It's sad when others won't even accept the fact that there is a huge problem going on right in front of their face? People have a deep urge to be happy and cover up the problem areas with concealer fondation, but what happends when that lil problem ends up to be the biggest problem not only for you but for your children...your childrens children?